Tales of A Lost Soul

Tis a sad struggle
A lost soul, weak and void
Struggling to the path shown
With guidance, yes but…
I am weak…very weak…

Ah…4 days to go…
I must hold on…
Keep my sanity
Now my physical appearence tires
My spirit grow sleepy

I just hope…I will make it to the end safely like I should….
For what I know…
For what I have…
Please…
Let me cross that bridge safely
Together…
With the others of the same path as me…

Oh, tis a pain…
Outer shells hypnotizes me…
Can I stay sane?
I am drawn to it…
The blossoms…

Pink cherry blossom yet with a hidden dash of scarlet, hidden? Maybe…
The taken gold rose…
The yellow sunflower…so radiant and kind…
Scarlet rose…as graceful as the wind, and strong of its natural essence…
The poised violet hibiscus, a valkrie on stage…
The forgotten orange lily…
Pure white Bell Flower..that ichirin no hana…I bowed to it once…spontaneously

Ugh…my mind drifts as I dwell in this garden
Sweet scenting…yet
Illusions of deceit…they may be…

Perhaps I should use something to distract my soul…
Something that has been a part of me for many years…
Not like these new garden of blossoms…
Yes…
I shall march…and fight myself…
Even if it does not look like I am fighting it…
Ore wa…tatakaimasu…jibun wo mamoru tameni…

Argh!
3days…and Ive lost!
Naraba…
4 days…
I shall go slow and steady…
As it wins the race…
On the jyuurokunichi of this month…I shall…go wild

Until that time comes…
I must…endure…
Master, please give me strenght…

Ah…it has not yet been 6 days…
Yet I already succummed…
Ugh…ore wa…yowaina…
It has only been 2 days…no?
I could not remember…
The entry I thought to exist…did not existed?

Saa…today…jyuugatsu touka…
I will endure…until jyuugatsu jyurokunichi…
I must…endure…

What was the start of all this?
Aitsura wa…damasareta
Jya…ore mo?

Today…I fell….lost
Lost in the maze of time…
Bored…

Heck, I have no time to be bored
The burden on me for what I know and have…
It is heavy…
I have no time to falter
No time to be bored

I know my purpose…
I just sometimes forget
With the distractions here and there
I am weak…thats why
Hope to be stronger…
Ore no negai…
I know what I must do…

There is only but one purpose for this sinful soul
Repentence
Atonement
To keep doing good deeds
So that one day…I will know…
If I am forgiven…
Or not…

Since I keep repeating the same mistakes over and over
Ore wa baka na ningen…
Tsuyoku ni naritai…

I must endure…until I crossed that bridge…

Guess this is what I get
For what I had done…
But…is this enough?
Perhaps this is the beginning…
Or maybe I am treated softly
Softer than a mother’s touch…
To her child…

Ah…how vague…
The dream has dwindeled even though it has only been a few days old
Yes, bits still remain…kakera

It was a good dream…yes…
The joy we had…
The experiences we shared…

How we were thrashed around
Then how we thrashed others around
Isshouni tabeta…mainichi

Aaa…I seem to want to see them again…
Aitai…
Whatwas the dream about?
Still vague…
My mind needs refurbishing…

Ignoring the matters at hand…
Looking back…
Ushiro wo miru…

Perhaps another time…if I’m allowed…XD