Tales of A Lost Soul

The cycle resets
Once the seal is broken
What a difficult task for me
To seal the darkness back in
The assaults kept coming

If, it ever reached a point that it was sealed…
Which is very rare…
It’ll be calm…for a few days the most.

The the dark torrents come yet again
Shaking the stand of this weak soul
Whats a weak and lost soul to do?
Succumb? Fight? Ask for aid?
Heh, that medicine would surely work…
But the journey to attain that medicine
The pure sacred way…is also difficult…and lies ahead…not here…

At least…thats what I think…unless something unexpected was written
Haha…yeah the sea of inner tears work well too…
But to go back to that me I was…might prove difficult…
And troublesome to some…the setting now forbids…perhaps.
Again…what can I do?
Fight? My will needs training to fight.
I can only…ask for help…

The chains…ties…
Countlessly broken…
And built again…
Will this cycle continue?
For how long?

Heh…the beginning of the 55th day…
A nice number…a nice verse number as well…
So… what stories shall be told today?
We’ll wait and see…
If there is written any…

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Heh…nanimonai…ka…
I knew it would be this way >.>
Ma, sore de ii…
Are dake…jyuubun…
Zetteini Wasurenai…
Ano toki.
Ano kagayaki.

Ugh…alone in the dark
With no light shining from the outside
My kage grows
As I hear you sing with your sisters
I still have some sense in me

But…I know not how long I will last
I’ll hold on to this oath
Even if it will destroy me
I’ll give my life for it
Now, the struggle continues…

Heh, can THAT radiance help?
It proved useful in the past
Though I need to dive again into that sea of sorrow
Then dive, if it helps me in my fight…ka…
That sounds reasonable…

But, with all that has been done…
To set myself back onto that sea again…
It will be difficult…
Manipulative…ka…
Heh, I have not the heart for it…
If not, many things I’ve already did, yes?
Ugh, the burden of this kage grows!

This soul weakens
With the broken chains of the oath
Can it be merged again?
Thats not the main important point
Something much greater lies above it
So…what can I do? I’ll only do what I am able to…
My journey…continues…

Its been awhile…
Heh, sure was fun.
And…you too…
I never noticed…
Three years huh…thats like, very long.
You guided me since I was small
On the first year there, till the end.

Of course the others too
I can’t express my gratitude enough
If it weren’t for them,
Im not…me.
Thank you again, deep from my heart.
To the beloved teachers…junior2…i was surprised some still remembered me
Sorry, as my memory is as it is…I don’t remember u guys well.

And of course my fellow comrades, the FIGHTERS.
May we meet again, if it is allowed.
And you too…my Bow Goddess.

Yare yare
This happened way back when
Not too long though.
Ano bara…ka…
Heh, omoshirei…
Nankai…
Sankai…futsuu…Once…pure.

.My my is this an omen?
Or a test?
This entry didn’t got through…
Maybe something was wrong somewhere?
Or perhaps just a test of determination?
Oh well, I’ll just learn from this small error.
Now…where were we? How did this verse sounded?

My my
This is interesting.
Really, it is.
Haahahahah…guess I still need to be a hard worker.
I don’t feel like reviving this verse to its original form…
Ore wa madamadadana…
Ma…hajimemashou.

My my…
A hidden pearl…a very utsukushii pearl
Inside an ordinary near modest shell…
In MY garden?
Haha…how blind can I get?
My sight was taken to the faraway tree…that I didn’t notice the small insignificant shell near me…
BESIDE me…what a blind wayfarer I am.

Now…shall I rephrase this garden?
Its been a while…
Surely quite a few entered and dissipated.
Lets see…
Lets begin form the top.

My Bell of course…still not knowing whether she has descended or not…tis complicated
My angelic sisters, the embracers…pearl, sunflower, rose…
Anything else?
Ah yes…the silent beauty…
The main actress of my monogatari
Has the play begun?
Maybe yes…maybe no.

Ah…and my life goes on.
What story shall unfold next?
Songs will dance…emotions shall awaken…tanoshiidana…
This VIP seat is the best…
I can see most of the play here…or is it the opposite?
Saa na…
Wakannai.

Its been too long since this song danced, yes?
Pity…what have I been doing actually?
Really lured out of my own comfy home
Well, tadaime.
Is what I should say, yes?

My my
This is unexpected
How interesting life is…
A pearl…a beautiful pearl.
Hidden inside an ordinary nearly modest shell.
All along…
It was in this garden.

Heh, how blind could I get?
Well, it was hidden what can I say?
I’m just a normal human after all…
Perhaps even more blind than a normal one
But still, how can I express this feeling of surprise?

I’m really astonished.
My sight was taken too faraway to realize what was beside me
Hehheh, my my…this just shows how foolish I can get.
Haha many left and entered this garden
I should rephrase it sometime.
Well I have the time now…
Shall we?

Lets see…
My Bell…
The angelic embracers…sunflower, pearl, kiniro no rose…
Anything else?
I’ll just leave it at that for the moment…
What can a blind wayfarer see?
Maybe I can feel better than see…but…maybe that is also blinded…

Heh…what happened to the monogatari I wrote?
Well maybe its still in progress
I’ll just have to keep myself busy with something else…
Since I still need to work on my patience.
It’ll start sooner or later…or maybe it already begun.
This VIP seat sure rocks
I’ll just sit back n relax more.

Heh, the Ribbon is too pink and cute too handle
Mere melodies and words drive me mad
Just melodies and words…I’m already this insane
Heh…add in a little outer shell appeal moves
The emo-meter just breaks open to the skies and space

Arrrgh! I must stay sane.
Staying in control tires me
Im fatigued
My spirit is now as low as ever
But…I must fight it…my kage…
I…must…for the oath still stands
I don’t know if the one I pledged my oath to has descended or not…

But whether she is here or not
It doesn’t matter
The oath must be kept
Its been broken many more times…the kage veses were just mere fragments of it…
Dakara…not even one more…I won’t break it again…
Even if it would destroy me…
I’ll let everything go…to keep this promise

Void…my heart is empty now…
Only the oath remains
The pain of letting go is…unbearable
It is…heavy…
But…I must go…for my Bell.

Its been too long
I missed that feeling
Haha…so we must begin by emptying our hearts huh?
Emptying it besides our master
Difficult…but…we have to do it

Too cast away this world from our hearts
That is soo difficult
Yet, it must be done

So…we are slaves to those we love…
So…we must not let the world make us its steed…
But make the world our steed…

My, my…so many things I learned today…
And a new ordeal begins…
Or should I put it…
The long forgotten abandoned struggle rises again…
The struggle to fight my kage…it is…difficult…

Heh…now what was that?
That short instant?
If its true…then…nanakai…ka….
Heh, what else shall come in the future?
Saa ne…what do I know?

It was the vaguest…might even be the fabrication of my…
My wildness? Or is it pure?
Haha…maa…wakannai…
Perhaps I just long too much
Heh, gotta stay strong…