Tales of A Lost Soul

Cigol:Enough! This has gotten rather annoying.

Tsul: He’s right…what are you dawdling for, loser?

Luos:What?

Cigol:Dear me, Can’t you see that you are effecting us both? You’re slowing me down.

Tsul:You’re making my food tasteless every time I eat!This is getting annoying!

Cigol: Just let go of it already. How long do you want to hold it?

Tsul: Yes, forget about it, there’s no need for it anymore. Its useless!

Luos:What? Let go of it? Heh…hehehehahahahamwahahahahahahahah
How can I let go of it? When its stuck to me? One with me? Apart of me?

Cigol: Nonsense! You’ll find better parts, I can help you.

Tsul: True, true. I can help sniff out those tasties for you. Ehehehhehehhehe

Luos: Yeah right, find another…like I can SEE! You morons! Do I LOOK like I can see? Do I LOOK like I can smell? Do I LOOK like I can feel? You idiots! My senses are all zero! I can’t feel a thing! Its numb…all numb and dark!

Tsul: No worries, we can help cover for you…all you need to do is say yes….fufufu…

Cigol: Seriously if you need anything I can help you with my great intellect, what other reason am I to exist? Just say the phrase…

Luos: Heh, you guys think its that easy to let go huh? Its not like I wanted to you know. Like you two said, there are better ones out there! But…I’m…I…I dunno damn it! I don’t even know how to let go! Its like a curse! Everyday it appears! Its apart of me now….how can I kill myself?

Tsul: Arrrrrgh!!!You imbecile! You weakling! Just let it go! Kill yourself if you have to! You’ll be born a new man! Greater and powerful than ever before, not like the worm you are know! You can soar! Just let it go!

Luos: No…no…how can I forget? How can I erase? I am powerless to do so!

Tsul: Ahhhhh! You weakling! You’re getting on my nerves! Just let it go and let me taste my food like it was supposed to! Don’t let your pitiful problem interrupt my feast! Arrrgh! I’ll kill you, you idiot!

Cigol: Now, now, there’s no need for bloodshed…you don’t want us all to die now do you?

Tsul: But this damn brat is driving me mad!

Cigol: Relax, all we need is some time. Now, you know, I know, we know there are better ones we can find out there. The both of us already gave this one up. Its your turn next.

Luos: I’m not like you guys…I’m…me-

Tsul: We are you! And you are apart of us! Have you forgotten?

Cigol: I’m surprised at your level of idiocy to sunk so low…you forgot that we are one? How amusing…

Luos:No! No! Its not that I forgot, just…you know…you have your strengths and elements, I have mine….so maybe at this area I’m a bit slower than you guys.

Cigol: Regardless whether you are slow or not, you have to forget sooner or later. Don’t drag us down together with you to your sea of sadness! I’m already losing half of my power!

Luos: Sorry…Its not like i wanted to drag you down…

Tsul: You’re making my days grow more boring and dull! Would you just cast it away and return to your former self? Like old times…the three of us…together!

Luos: I wish I could…but…I…I don’t know how…I CAN’T!!!

Tsul: Gahhh! You little brat! I’m already hungry for good food, and I don’t want to taste another tasteless meal, its disgusting! I’m gonna make you forget, once and for all! Hand it over right now or I’ll chop your hands off!

Luos: No! Over my dead body!

Tsul: Tch! Fine! Have it your way! I’ll take it by force!

Cigol: Looks like it can’t be helped…the kid needs some discipline. I’ll just let you handle it.

Tsul: Here I come! Kono kutsou gaki!

Luos: Even if its you…I won’t lose! No…I CAN’T lose!

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Tsul: What the? When did he get so strong? I lost to this brat?

Luos: I told you…..I can’t lose…

Cigol: You clearly lacked technique and strategy… now its my turn…I know its dirty…but it can’t be helped…you must forget.

Luos: I wont!

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Cigol: This is impossible…how could my superior techniques and intellect lose?

Tsul: Hehehe…you thinking what I’m thinking?

Cigol: He’s exhausted…its a good chance…your power, my strategy.

Tsul: Sounds like a plan.

Luos: Nothing’s gonna stop me! Even the two of you combined…I’ll protect it till the end. I won’t let go!

Cigol: Here I come.

Tsul: Lets party!!!!!!Gyahahahhahahahahahahahh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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Cigol: No way…he wasn’t this strong in the past…

Tsul: How did this weakling get such power? Damn it! This sucks!

Cigol: This certainly does…this doesn’t look good…

Luos: You guys had enough?

Tsul: Really, tell me…what is so special bout THAT?

Cigol: Yes, and explain how you got so powerful as well.

Luos: Heh…special? I don’t know myself…you guys know too…how long we searched since we were guided…since we were given the "true way"…we searched and searched…you guys know that feeling too, right?

Tsul: Gahh! The guidance crap again! You never let go of it do you?

Cigol: Continue.

Luos: Didn’t you guys see it?

Tsul: See what? Are you not blind now?

Luos: Yes…I am blind now…thanks to it…

Cigol: It made you blind? How could it be possible? The both of us are fine…

Tsul: Heh, this guy’s sensitive since he was born…what a wimp.

Luos: Not just blind…my senses…they suddenly stooped feeling…like they’re numb…I can’t feel anything else…but this.

Cigol: But how could it make you lose your senses…tis a mystery…and even with your blindness and dead senses…you still defeated us both…

Tsul: You overpowered us like we were worms…heh…this sucks…

Luos: I…only thought of holding it…never to let go…thats all…everything came into place after that…I wasn’t thinking…I only held to it…closely.

Cigol: Seriously, you want to continue this journey while holding that burden on your shoulders? The probability of success is low you know…very low…

Luos: I know…but if I let go…I think that..I won’t be me anymore.

Tsul: Seriously, I’m already smelling better food than that…you still stubborn?

Luos: Yeah…its very important to me.

Cigol: My, my, were getting dragged into a lot of trouble just for that…

Tsul: Oh boy…more tasteless food…well, you kicked us both, hard…guess your the boss now.

Cigol: I don’t want to admit it…but I guess I have to bow to you…since I lost to you too…

Luos: So you guys are gonna help me?

Tsul: Like I have a choice…

Cigol: Only idiots would refuse you…

Luos: Heh…guess its decided then…we’re going to continue our journey. While holding it close to us.

Cigol: What is so special about it anyway? I sense nothing out of the ordinary…

Tsul: Yeah, I don’t see anything too delicious…

Luos: Can’t you guys see it? The hikari we’ve been searching for all this time? Its right here.

Tsul & Cigol: !!!!!

Heh, is this a good or bad omen?
Maybe both, maybe none.
Grey…ka…
Its been awhile…or is it?
Looks fun.

If only I stayed silent
At that time
Maybe it wouldn’t have sparked the ordeal
But I didn’t
It spread faster than a plague

This…is all my fault
Its too late to undone
We can’t go back…I can’t
If only I was calm enough
I might be laughing now, smiling a smile of happiness

Yet…here I am…
In this solitude
All alone
In the shadows
Weak and spiritless
I have not the spirit to fight back
The shadow cycle spins rapidly

All this may not actually be connected…
Yet again, maybe they are
Is this…my punishment?
Eventhough I was the one who brought this…this sad wind onto myself…
It might have been written from the very beginning…
One of many possibilities
And I made my fate walk on this road…

Aren’t I foolish?
"Learn from our mistakes and move on…"
Easier said than done.
This pain, this anguish of regret of my own ignorance and selfishness…
I can barely stay sane
How weak can I get…hahaha
I always told myself to be strong…
Yet…in the end…nothing!
Is this even the end?
Saa…I don’t really know…
Its scary to know when it’ll end, no?
But I don’t know
Not knowing when it’ll end…but I still linger around aimlessly

Really, what kind of ungrateful servant am I?
Orokana, yowai, heh…
So, I have to embrace this punishment…
To atone for my sins? Or is it?
Saa…wakannai…

I wanted to believe it
But its all just a dream
I…can’t go back now…can I?

Ah sou…
How long has it been?
I’ll check it later
Its been a while…
Grey huh…

Lately my acids tend to be more ferocious then before
He said its because…
Maybe it wasn’t something serious
Maybe he didn’t say it with a serious thought…
But, then again…he is an experienced one compared to me

So…do I?
Well perhaps…
Think I’ll check now…how long has it been?
Heh…Its the 72nd day…Its been 17 days…
Yeah, nothing much, perhaps it is.

Heh now is a good time for the shadows to come out and play
Wonder If I’ll live?
Yeah, guess I do…
But the me now is not yet qualified…
I must be stronger…

Ah, yes…those gentle hands
Those soft cheeks
The ever soothing voice
Unstoppable guidance and protection
Nourishment and healing
From the beginning of my time
Till now

The greatest blossoms
That reigns overall now and forever
None can compare
One that I pledge my loyalty to till the end of my life
After my master and his lover

Today, a day to commemorate the best teacher
The best guardian
The best protector
When tears flow
When fear strikes
Do you not remember the times when you were weak?
Who was there for you?

To all knights out there and untouched maidens…
Love your mother, more than your life
For without them, we are not us.

*Inspired by Amir Syakireen’s bulletin post…*

Lay your traps foul witches!
We fight with honour!
In our own grounds, others or yours!
We have our lords blessings!
You who play dirty have naught!
Pray all you will!
We know whose good and bad!

Victory acclaimed!
Our cries of thankfulness and glory shook your grounds!
Tis embarrassing, to lose on your own field…no?
Our victory cheers and hymns echo, though we have less man power than you…
Remember, one of us…is equal to four of you!
And so…goes one of our anthems
That sounds:

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Everywhere we go
People want to know
Who we are
Where we come from
So we tell then
We are the SAS boys!
Mighty-mighty SAS boys!
Wooooooooo-ooooooooh
Yeeeeeeeeee-eeeeaaaaaaaah!
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We brought home 5 titles, while you brought….one was it? Or perhaps two…
No matter…
The tree of us helped out spanking the young ones
Well those two I guess
I was just there for support most of the time
For the three of us…
Our beloved song goes:

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Kamilah permata
Anak kesayangan
Kebanggaan ayah dan ibu
Kami dibesarkan dengan kasih sayang
Hanya yang terbaik untukmu
Menjadi harapan di masa hadapan
Kamilah anak yang cemerlang
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And so…another battle awaits us…
The real fight will soon begin…
Its show time!

The cycle resets
Once the seal is broken
What a difficult task for me
To seal the darkness back in
The assaults kept coming

If, it ever reached a point that it was sealed…
Which is very rare…
It’ll be calm…for a few days the most.

The the dark torrents come yet again
Shaking the stand of this weak soul
Whats a weak and lost soul to do?
Succumb? Fight? Ask for aid?
Heh, that medicine would surely work…
But the journey to attain that medicine
The pure sacred way…is also difficult…and lies ahead…not here…

At least…thats what I think…unless something unexpected was written
Haha…yeah the sea of inner tears work well too…
But to go back to that me I was…might prove difficult…
And troublesome to some…the setting now forbids…perhaps.
Again…what can I do?
Fight? My will needs training to fight.
I can only…ask for help…

The chains…ties…
Countlessly broken…
And built again…
Will this cycle continue?
For how long?

Heh…the beginning of the 55th day…
A nice number…a nice verse number as well…
So… what stories shall be told today?
We’ll wait and see…
If there is written any…

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Heh…nanimonai…ka…
I knew it would be this way >.>
Ma, sore de ii…
Are dake…jyuubun…
Zetteini Wasurenai…
Ano toki.
Ano kagayaki.

Ugh…alone in the dark
With no light shining from the outside
My kage grows
As I hear you sing with your sisters
I still have some sense in me

But…I know not how long I will last
I’ll hold on to this oath
Even if it will destroy me
I’ll give my life for it
Now, the struggle continues…

Heh, can THAT radiance help?
It proved useful in the past
Though I need to dive again into that sea of sorrow
Then dive, if it helps me in my fight…ka…
That sounds reasonable…

But, with all that has been done…
To set myself back onto that sea again…
It will be difficult…
Manipulative…ka…
Heh, I have not the heart for it…
If not, many things I’ve already did, yes?
Ugh, the burden of this kage grows!

This soul weakens
With the broken chains of the oath
Can it be merged again?
Thats not the main important point
Something much greater lies above it
So…what can I do? I’ll only do what I am able to…
My journey…continues…

Its been awhile…
Heh, sure was fun.
And…you too…
I never noticed…
Three years huh…thats like, very long.
You guided me since I was small
On the first year there, till the end.

Of course the others too
I can’t express my gratitude enough
If it weren’t for them,
Im not…me.
Thank you again, deep from my heart.
To the beloved teachers…junior2…i was surprised some still remembered me
Sorry, as my memory is as it is…I don’t remember u guys well.

And of course my fellow comrades, the FIGHTERS.
May we meet again, if it is allowed.
And you too…my Bow Goddess.